Hello all of you beautiful people!
I just wanted to write an update for everyone regarding my back and hip pain. As most everyone I know is aware, I am injured. I’m not exactly sure how it happened. Quite possibly a combination of working a job for about five years in which I lifted 29 – 40 lb boxes nearly daily, sleeping on a bad bed for about a year and maybe even carrying around the 42F cup breasts so many of you love! I’m mostly kidding about the last part. I actually think they made my back stronger.
I started having back problems about three years ago and it got better with some yoga specifically made for lower back problems. Then the back issue came back and sort of spread up my back a bit and down into my left hip. If I’m sitting still, it can be non-existent, but I end up with numbness/nerve pain after a little while and need to change positions. If I’m laying down, I am pretty much always feeling some level of pain. When I move from a seated position or lying down, that’s when it really hurts. Lifting one leg while sitting, laying down and rolling from one side to the other, getting up from sitting or laying down, etc are all difficult. When I first get up from sitting or standing, I am only able to move hunched over and need to sort of shuffle for a bit. Additionally, sweeping sucks and standing while shifting slightly (doing dishes, for example) is also hard. Along with many other activities, but I do notice the more I’m standing and moving around, the better. As you can imagine, this makes camming really difficult.
I saw my neurologist and he did a nerve test. I had MRIs done on my hip and back, saw an orthopedic surgeon and I’m doing physical therapy. All signs point to this taking a lot longer than I expected. I apologize to everyone who took my estimates on my recovery seriously. I was right there with you! Unfortunately, this is just going to take as long as it takes.
I’ve decided that going forward, I’ll be doing phone sex, sexting and otherwise focusing on content to sell on the various sites I use plus the soon-to-be-available Supporting Fan site. Making videos and picture sets is as taxing as camming, but because I only make one to six in a day, two to three times a month, it’s a lot easier on me than the seven – twelve cam shows I usually did, three to four times a week!
I am considering doing some very, very limited time on cam. Probably only on days I can do it with Aubrey. Please know that this is not even in the works now and I will make a huge fuss on my blog, Twitter and Skype to letting everyone know about it and when it will happen. For now, I’m just mulling this over as it will be difficult.
I miss you guys so much. I miss the fun I had, the sensuality of some shows and the nastiness of others. I miss pleasing all of you. And connecting. Please stop by on Skype and say hi, in the meantime, but if you would consider patience on my announcement about camming again, I would appreciate it. As you can imagine, I get asked a lot when I’ll be better! xo
I’m ok. I’m dealing with this new normal. I think life is throwing all of us A LOT more to worry about than this. Besides, you all know I can handle a little pain. 😉
Lots of love,